Ok so maybe more like a quarter life crisis?
I know I'm practically a baby with a great life that shouldn't be in any sort of crisis right?!
I don't get what my deal is lately, It's like I accidentally sat on the "remote" of life hit fast-forward / skipped several chapters and now the movie life I just sat down to watch is almost over and
I'm ONLY 24!!!
We're done having kids -yes that's official and no we won't be changing our minds. -Believe me it's not at all what I planned for.
Cole's done with school and in a career.
I'm THE ONLY stay-at-home mom in Gunnison and I can't even tell you how frustrating/discouraging/difficult/lonely that has been!! Especially after being in Eagle Mountain :( which is the first place IN MY LIFE that has felt like home.
I haven't felt so out of place since I moved to Nevada with my parents -and that only lasted a couple weeks!
I have NO CLUE what I'm doing here!
I like the people and everything -but don't tell me this is a great place to raise a family
-this is a great place to live but it is SSSOOOO NOT family oriented it's work oriented -which is fine
-IF YOU WORK!
I've had the flu for the past couple weeks and I'm DONE with being cooped up I think I just might go crazy! The only problem is that Grey is now sick and I'm not one of those moms that like to go spreadin the wealth -believe me my temp was like 104.2 for quite a few days
it was AWFUL
I'm not wishin that on anyone. So we will remain shut-ins until we can all be certain that we are over it
-and then probably until April so we can make sure we wont have to go through this again!
-grumble grumble grumble gripe gripe gripe-
Where did my positive attitude run off and hide?
It'll probably come out tomorrow smiling and ready for a new week
but right at this moment it's lost somewhere in this germ infested mess of a person I call